The lesson of 2009

The year 2009 was unprecedented in our living history.... 2009 has been a remarkable year...., this has been an eventful year for the world...., in many ways 2009 has been a landmark year...., the year 2009 has been a unique one. You may think by reading these lines that the last year has been outstanding an overwhelming for me but this is not the reason why I am writing these lines here. When going through the Coporate Dossier of Economic Times, I saw the essays starting with these words and two things came in my mind. Why everybody starts the retrospection with these words (its answer I seek from you guys) and why should not I write about my experience of year 2009. Hence this piece before you.
                
                        To start with, I can't classify the year 2009 as the unique, though it is distinctly memorable year in my life as I have gained experience a lot, especially about personal relationships. At the same time, I have lost the things in this year, which I believe can't be re-gained in future. Honestly, I am not the person who make new year resolutions or set any goal to achieve, but I did that for year 2009 and alas, I failed to complete both my resolutions. The reasosn--- well, I believe that I tried very hard to achieve both the goals- one realted with relationship and other with career- but perhaps my stars and constellations are not illuminated enough to emit positive rays of success. :)

                      On the personal front, I made some good friends on whom I can rely on in my difficulties. But unfortunately, I could not do much in their difficult times, could not do enough  to resolve some of their problems and the year left with a bitterness in my heart on its finishing point. Even today I wish for the things to be normal again but now I have left everything at the time's mercy. In fact I have now adopted a wait and watch policy for my life as well. At the same time I must tell you that I found this policy quite ineffiective and abrupt in my case as this always led me to devastation, disappointment, delusionment and deviation from my being my natural self. But I don't know what to do now other than try to be cool and happy in whatever situation in which I land.
                         
                        During the year I came to know about so many new things about the human nature that I went to the extent to read psychology. This, of course, enriched my experience about judging any person and analysing the aspects of his/her personality. I came into close contact with many girls (all of them are my friends) who shared their time and feelings with me and let me enter their personal space. Believe me during  going through every conversation, a new world of thought seems to unfold before me. I don't claim to act as the trobleshooter for them but listened all of them patiently and tried to advice which make sense. The important thing is that I came to know what today's girls think, what they want and what prompt them to decide about their future. It is not a revealation but an astonishing fact that I found most of my lady-friends think and act in a similar fashion to a large extent.

                      Talking about myself, I must admit that I have never been so confused, so depressed and so frustrated as much was this year. I realised that I could not stick to my decisions, whether about personal relationships or career. My career stalled at the same place at the end of this year, where it was in the beginning. All my attempts to boost my career went in vain and I saw decline in the graph of my career. And come 20/11, which left a stain on my mind. I can't explain why it was a big setback for me but only I can tell you that it shattered my dreams of stability. So far good things are concerned, I have got really lovely friends with whom I had a lot of fun and few memorable moments.

                       Surely, I had hoped for more but you have to wait for the right time, which in my case has not come. My journey of 2009 has been a rough one but to be a good driver you must know how to drive on rough terrain as well, mustn't you? So though a lot of change did occur with me in 2009 but will these lead to goodness? Let's see and hope for the better. It is said that all change is not growth and all movement is not forward. This is the lesson from the year 2009 to me, I think. Thank you all.
:)